Kay-Elf

kay_elf @ 2008-05-03T01:07:00

2008-05-03T00:10:57Z

Things that make me happy: the thought of a sunny day tomorrow, talking to Sam, catching up on Doctor Who series 4.

Things that make me sad: that Londoners have seen fit to vote in BORIS JOHNSON as our new mayor...

snow in april

2008-04-07T01:50:20Z

I am immersing myself in music, lying in bed at 2am thinking I ought to be sleeping but would rather pour Afro Celt Sound System, amongst other stuff (The Cat Empire, Gogol Bordello etc), into my ears. Plus unfortunately I feel full of energy, though I do have to work tomorrow so ought to take advantage of it being night and actually sleep for a bit.

I enjoyed the snow earlier, went out into the garden with my camera and took a few photographs, seemingly like everyone else. I've noticed lately that my photography has been a bit slack; I've been taking my usual over excessive amount but they've mostly been shitty 'oh let's put this on Facebook' drunken ones, which is a bit shaming as I would like my photographs to at least be some way decent. So, going to make sure I make a bit more effort, plus I really want to go to some photography exhibitions and get some new ideas and learn more about different photographers and techniques.

I'm very content at the moment, I have been these past few months but in the last couple of weeks a few things have happened to make me realise how lucky I am and that my life is entirely in my own hands, and whatever I want to do with it. I have amazing friends, plenty of opportunities and am feeling healthy in every way. I'm totally loved up, which is a funny feeling as I've not felt like that in a long long while, if ever to this extent. Being with Sam makes me calmly happy, and it shows.
I have some ideas for what I want to do with my year and in general I just need to make sure I do it and do all the things I want and intend to do. I am detirmined to spend a few months down in Cornwall over the summer, enjoy time with Sam and play in the sea, and then am considering moving to somewhere like Bristol or Bath, if I can afford it, and find library work there, if I decide to continue down that route. Shall see. I know the one thing I am passionate about is getting into heritage/conservation work, but I worry about the lack of money in it. I'll work it out though. Of course, I may just end up staying in Cornwall but I am not leaping to that conclusion before it happens.

This song is so good.

kay_elf @ 2008-03-02T01:13:00

2008-03-02T01:32:12Z

I'm lying in bed listening to the sounds of the radio reverberating up through the floor from the kitchen below, thinking it's 1am and I ought to be sleeping as tomorrow we have a family party, my granmother's birthday and a big family gathering. I'm looking forward to it. I don't see my family a huge amount but they're all very nice, warm and fun people, and I'll get to see several of my cousins, so it'll be enjoyable.

I've been feeling a little unsure the past couple of weeks, in regards to the ongoing search for a job and what the future holds, and whether I should stay in London for the summer or go and spend a few months down in Cornwall, but I realised as I sat on the train to Chichester today, looking at the simple but lovely English landscape, that I can really only be thankful for how things are.
I've been financially stable enough to indulge myself and do my favourite things, it's always good and healthy to have plenty of things to look forward to and I feel spoilt for choice with my current list. I went down to Chichester today to spend a few hours with Celia, which was delightful as ever. We went for a walk down to a copse nearby, where there was a pond full of frogs mating. I'd never seen this before, or known that they frequently end up in a ball of several frogs at once! I was fascinated. Also have decided to spend Easter weekend up in Edinburgh, which is so exciting. Sara's not been to Edinburgh before so it'll be fun introducing her to different places, and seeing Celia's lovely flat, and being in Scotland, etc.

I went to Brighton on Thursday, it was entirely unplanned, just a spontaneous decision after failing to get to what I'd intended to do with the day, I thought, where do I want to be right now? And suddenly was overcome with both the desire to be in solitude and beside the sea. So I went to Victoria, got on the train and as soon as I stepped off it in Brighton I felt so calm and happy. I don't know if it's partly to do with the fact that some of the best days I had last year were spent there, but I'm very fond of Brighton. As such, I am going to be spending my birthday weekend there in a fortnight with Sam, Sara, Suze & James, Maff and hopefully Liz.

Hmmf, I really am not sure about this online journal malarkey. This type of stuff surely belongs in my personal journal. I am very content and steady at present, but there's really only so much you need to publiscise this fact! Still, I thought about what you said, Michelle, and as I walked along the beach on Thursday (for three and a half hours, it was an overcast, damp day so I was covered in drizzle and had aching feet by the end of it, it was great) I 'wrote' it out in my head, describing it all. I'll see if I can extract it from my brain at some point over the next couple of days...

kay_elf @ 2008-02-27T00:38:00

2008-02-27T01:02:09Z

Another day of finding jobs and looking through the list of possible employments online, both in London and Cornwall. The months ahead are still open, apart from a few scattered dates where I'm going to a gig or a wedding. I've begun to apply to work outside of the library criteria, jobs involving animal care and conservation too. I'd like to keep it varied.

It feels somewhat strange keeping an online journal again, with no fandom related stuff to focus on. I feel if anyone online wants to know about my life, either they'll talk to me on MSN, or Facebook, or similar. Still, I shall continue to note down my life at present.

I like having a lot of things to look forward to, and this year has so far been pretty rich with that kind of thing - putting aside the amount of time I've spent down in Cornwall, I've been to Swindon to see Liz and Michelle which I thoroughly enjoyed, and have just spent this past weekend in Manchester with Ellie and Suze for a whirlwind catch-up with everyone, which happily encompassed all who I care for in Manchester except Ange who was away in Leeds. Hello to Sef's friends that I met at ARa! It was good to see you hun. I seem to also have a sore throat at the moment, though I feel they cannot be linked.

And wow, suddenly everyone up North is talking about how there's just been an earthquake!

kay_elf @ 2008-02-25T13:42:00

2008-02-25T13:45:11Z

Right, not that I'm terribly invested in my LJ, but looking through my info it's beginning to resemble some relic from the past, so I'm going to sort it out! I know this is really of little fascination, but never mind. Such is the indulgence of being currently unemployed ;*)

kay_elf @ 2008-01-25T01:35:00

2008-01-25T01:37:44Z

Is it just me, or is this year looking to be pretty damn great for a lot of people?

Not saying it's all perfect. Just happiness or the potential for it seems to be in the air.

2007

2007-12-25T00:01:55Z

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Hmm...Climbed. Made some definite decisions!

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
A few; moved back to London, am happy, got out of my overdraft, kept a hold on who I am, enjoyed great friendships, enjoyed the sea, travelled around Britain and decided on a career. I still can't swim though! I know what I hope for from the next year, won't bother with resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
A new cousin was born in November, Fergus. He's gorgeous.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thankfully.

5. What countries did you visit?
Only Scotland!

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A definite career. I'm getting there.

7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Actually, no dates especially jump out. Definitely some good days, but no particular date.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Recovering who I am, gaining a sense of true purpose and happiness.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not being honest enough with myself to admit when I wasn't happy.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Not really.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Train tickets :*)

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Pretty much every single one of my friends, for their unceasing love and support over the summer. Friends at work, Sara, Liz, Crick, Ellie and Kenny, Daniel, Sef, Sam, Lou etc deserve particular mention for being both encouraging and wise, and kicking me up the arse when needed. Suze for her unwavering support for almost every single damn day since she came back.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
The answer to this question is too obvious to mention.

14. Where did most of your money go?
First half of the year - non-fun stuff, for the most part. Second half - good things, like train tickets and drinks with friends.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Standing by the sea :*P Trips to Brighton.

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
A very random mix of stuff. To name a few:
Eve6 - here's to the night
Incubus - love hurts
Ani Difranco - shameless
aim - cold water music
Groove Armada - song 4 mutya
The Dresden Dolls - delilah
V.A.S.T - touched
Plenty of tracks by Dave Matthews Band and Shpongle, as well as unfortunately loads of rubbish indie crap I inevitably heard on the radio!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
More fat or thin: thinner, I think, or about the same
More rich or poor: a lot more financially stable, thank goodness
More happy or sad: much happier

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Learning to do all those damn things I keep meaning to!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastinating. :*D I'd say wasting time on things that aren't worth it, but then I believe you live and learn, so ultimately nearly everything is worth it.

20. How will you be spending NYE?
In Cornwall with Sam is all I know.

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
With life again!

23. How many one-night stands?
One. Meh.

24. What was your favourite TV programme?
Nothing particularly.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No, it's too easy to hold grudges. I have the people I want in my life. That's good enough.

26. What was the best book you read?
Ooh far too difficult to answer!

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Ani DiFranco, various random electronic/dance things.

28. What did you want and get?
Trips to Cornwall and briefly Scotland, good times with various friends, one particular bloke.

29. What did you want and not get?
A bit of respect from people I would have appreciated it from.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
I haven't been to the cinema much but Pan's Labyrinth wins best film for me.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
23, and to celebrate had a great night out with good friends. Cocktails and dancing at Jillys!

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
For the second half to have started a lot sooner!

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
Mixed.

34. What kept you sane?
Good friends, good music, photographs.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmm, not any really anymore. Dominic Monaghan still, if I had to choose.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Global warming, without a doubt.

37. Who did you miss?
Most people at certain points.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
My friends at work - but also re-kindling everything with Sam.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
Be honest with yourself and trust your instincts on what is right for you. Don't apologise for being the way you are!

kay_elf @ 2007-11-15T02:11:00

2007-11-15T01:11:50Z

I would never want to be like you, and I would never do those things you do.

kay_elf @ 2007-04-13T00:20:00

2007-04-12T23:20:56Z

because you're mine, I walk the line

slightly

2007-02-07T23:25:12Z

England is covered in a sparkly veneer of frost at the moment. It's very cold but I don't mind as I'm somewhat taken with how very pretty everywhere looks, even the centre of Manchester.

I think I am in agreement with Miss Ellie J in regards to LJ, as in, I also don't really post much or really know what to say. I have plenty of thoughts and observations on a daily basis but they seem out of place here. I feel LJ was the massive part of my LotR fandom days, and I think in a way if I am to continue keeping an online blog, I'd like to start a new one. Possibly a new LJ, but just another one.

Though on the subject of LotR, Ryan and I just watched the end of RotK and I cried as usual as the ship sailed to the Grey Havens. I can't imagine watching it and *not* still feeling sad. Oh beloved Lord of the Rings.

We spent the weekend in Somerset, and it was lovely. I felt so peaceful the whole time we were there.

Love, thoughts, sadness, joy...etc. Take care all.

this next month

2007-02-01T00:11:56Z

I've been disgracefully slack on updating this past month. So, we're into the second month of 2007. Already? But then, time always feels like it goes whooshing past. It's just what you do with it. I do feel like quite a bit has happened in the last few weeks.

There will be more, soon.

this is how it feels

2007-01-11T09:49:48Z

I like this year thus far, especially as it seems to be going well for several of my close friends, too. Everyone seems to be feeling fairly positive and content at the moment!

Having said that, I'm not in the best condition right now as I have the heavy beginning feelings of a cold in my head and chest, but I inevitably get one every January, it's just a case of drinking lots of lemon and honey and enjoying that delicacy my dad recommends (and force fed me when I had a very bad cold two years ago which lasted for several weeks), crushed garlic with honey on toast. It gets surprisingly addictive and it certainly helps to clear your passages!

I always begin each year with a sense of what the next twelve months will hold. Suze said it's better to make detirminations rather than resolutions, and you're more likely to make sure you keep to them! So here is what I hope to acheive this year, and am going to try to my hardest to make sure I do.

- learn to swim so I can properly enjoy the sea this summer
- take up horse riding again, because I really miss it
- climb some trees!
- go to as many gigs and festivals and raves and random events as we can
- really get into working on this story I've been trying to put together
- move back to London, find somewhere good to live
- get out of my overdraft and be financially stable
- set up a website to sell my painted ceramics
- be as healthy and active as possible, go walking as much as I can
- read, learn new information, take lots of photographs (not that I really need to make that a resolution!)
- stay in contact with all my friends as much as possible
- travel, especially around Britain seeing people
- keep a hold on who I am and try to keep over thinking to a minium
- continue to enjoy and grow in my relationship with Ryan :*)
- start working on what I want to do, begin a course in animal care and do some volunteer work to gain as much experience as possible

:*)

kay_elf @ 2007-01-04T23:11:00

2007-01-04T23:14:42Z

It's funny, but...sometimes I wish me and Ryan were more young and foolish.

To be fair, maybe we are.

I love him.

Welcome to the New Year

2007-01-04T09:58:20Z

So now we're in 2007! I enjoy the feeling of a fresh page, even though I'm aware that the concept of a new year is, well, just that. But still. 2006 had some amazing moments in it, and I have some really happy memories, particularly from the first part of the year, but the end of the summer and the autumn became such a strange mash of confusion and change and feeling out of control, that I am quite glad to have a new year to focus on. Particularly as I feel fairly positive about it and what I hope to acheive over the next twelve months, and regaining that sense of being in control of what I am doing. Not that I had much excuse for panicking over everything as much as I did a few months ago, but you learn as you go along.

I had a really wonderful Christmas. I always love returning to London, it was lovely seeing my family and Jessie, sitting around the tree in our living room. There were no arguments, it was all a lot of fun and really good to see my brother, he's enjoying life in Boston and hopefully sometime this year we will be able to go and visit him. I didn't manage to see anyone other than the closest friends in London, though I did meet Kia/Lou on the Wednesday, which was great. I had several great days with Sara and Suze, and last Thursday evening the five of us went out in Brick Lane for a few drinks and a curry. I was so happy being around them all, especially as I hadn't seen Liz and Maff for ages.

I came back to Manchester on Saturday and Ryan was there on the platform waiting for me as the train pulled in. It was so good to see him, after all the ups and downs of the autumn we are working on what we have and the past few days have been good. We spent New Year with Sef and Rayen, which was really nice, drinking champagne and watching the fireworks, both on TV and in the street outside. Hopefully we will be seeing them this weekend.
We spent New Year's day lazing at their house, then left in the early evening and walked home as there were no buses. It was actually really nice walking back in the drizzle, we talked and discussed the future and the present and random other things. The past few nights we've snuggled up in our room and watched episodes of Men Behaving Badly, which I find highly amusing.

I am working on the switchboard again for now and may get work here again next week, possibly, but I'm searching for and applying to other jobs as well, will have to see how it all goes.

Well, it's almost 10am, I hope Ryan is feeling better, he is beginning to get a cold. He isn't working today, he's begun his three day week schedule, so at least he can rest til tomorrow.
I may read the newspaper for a bit, potter about...it's so nice being able to sneak onto the internet at work!

something to talk about

2006-12-22T09:02:22Z

This afternoon Ryan and I are catching a coach down to Somerset. Hopefully we will be seeing Rayen before we do that. Things have been a bit hectic this week but they're righted themselves, luckily.

So looking forward to being back in Castle Cary (yay, beautiful Somerset!), and then to being in London from Sunday morning. Liz, Maff, Suze, Sara...looking forward to the week ahead! Boozle!

Lots of love from me xx

muse

2006-12-18T10:17:54Z

Another Monday morning! And in a week it'll be Christmas Day and I'll be home. I'm back in the office and hopefully will be working for the rest of the week now, as someone is off sick. I hope he's ok as I think it's quite serious and he's a nice lad, but from a selfish point of view working this week would lift a huge financial worry.

Anyway, I'm not feeling worried at the moment. The weekend was busy but completely lovely, I feel very relaxed and happy at the moment. Things are mending and progressing, and there's a lot to be happy and glad about. On Saturday we went into town to do a few bits of shopping, and I paid for Ryan to get his labrette peirced as his Christmas present. The poor bloke went white a few minutes after we left Holier Than Thou so I led him to the Basement cafe, sat him down on a sofa and got him a cup of sweet tea. There was a chess board on the table in front of us so we played one game and he beat me, which happily brought the colour back to his cheeks :*) Then that evening I finally got to see Kate and Charley, which was great. We watched Tipping the Velvet, discussed necklines and ate some very nice homemade sweets.

Yesterday was Sef and Rayen's Yule gathering and it was fantastic, I'd been looking forward to it for a while. Sef and Rayen are both wonderful and have been mine and Ryan's saviours this autumn (not to swell your egos or anything!) :*P Hee. Anyway, we arrived at their house by about midday - if we had gone to bed a little earlier than 4am we might have managed to get up earlier! I met their lovely new cat Terra (she's a fluffy version of my Jessie!), she's beautiful. I love being around animals, which reminds me - on Saturday morning I went into the garden to put out some bird seed and startled a fox that was sniffing around outside the back door, which made me very happy. I hope it's a local and wasn't just passing through.

Anyway, I met Terra and then we all sat in their living room and exchanged gifts. They gave Ryan a cool DVD of weird music :*P which was then played on loop through the evening, so I became well acquainted with several of the songs and went to sleep with lyrics from Judas Priest going round my mind! I was given a cute cat mug complete with chocolate mouse and a funky striped top which I will be wearing when I next go out.

Work is extremely busy today so I keep losing my train of thought as soon as another person calls the switchboard!

So, yesterday was great, I am still full from eating so much! I need to learn how to make bacon cherries. It was really nice meeting more people and just spending time socialising, random conversations, comforting atmosphere, it was all good. Now I'm looking forward to the end of the week, driving to Somerset on Friday afternoon. So excited about that!

Well I had better go as the whole world appears to be sorting out their finances this morning, but happiness :*) Thankful for good friends and things to look forward to and life in general.

what you're supposed to be

2006-12-15T10:16:56Z

While listening to X-fm on the bus this morning, one of the presenters said they were going to put up their Christmas tree tonight.
OTHER PRESENTER: You haven't put your tree up?! But you've already missed Twelth night!
ME: O.o ...please tell me she didn't just say that.

I just was surprised, but I probably shouldn't be. Don't people know when the twelve days of Christmas are? Though to be fair, I don't remember being taught much about Epiphany at school, I think most of it came from my parents and just reading books and stuff.

I'm probably a bit unfair about that type of thing anyway. I just consider that basic knowledge, like when I was on the boats and used to be shocked by people not knowing the difference between ducks and geese. Then again, I don't really know very much about different makes of cars and those are a pretty regular part of our daily life too.

Almost the weekend, yay! :*) Happiness.

half asleep and drifting

2006-12-13T13:23:42Z

It's been a busy morning on the 'phones at work, I've barely had a moment to glance out of the window and see that it's yet another grey, dreary looking day. Still, never mind. I wish I felt more Christmassy. I really must try to find my advent calender tonight or at least buy a few strands of tinsel. But I did ring my mum last night and tell her when I'm coming home, which is quite exciting. When I get my pay tomorrow we can book the hired car and my trainfare from Castle Cary to London, so at least that'll be organised and we'll know we definitely have a means of getting South!

I am so looking forward the New Year and finding long term work, happy though I am in my current temporary job, it was only meant to be for one week. I'm hoping I'll get a few more days work next week, as that'd at least mean I'm not completely broke between Christmas and the New Year. Honestly, this autumn has been so stressful moneywise. I know it has been like that for a lot of other people and I hope that January brings us all a lot more financial peace.
I read this article the other day that said an 'astonishing statistic' has been discovered that about 60% of people in their twenties wouldn't be able to afford their monthly outgoings if they were off work for a long period of time. I wouldn't say that was a particularly surprising discovery, I certainly wouldn't be able to afford them and I doubt any of my friends would either. I think people are really unaware when it comes to money, I mean it's great being able to go to university and being given a loan but paying it back is a huge weight around your neck for years to come and to be honest, I can't even say the degree I have was worth the money it cost me and my parents. I just think it's stupid that students are not really given much financial advice, especially with things like overdrafts. I was unusual in not having an overdraft until halfway through my third year and that was only because I had no choice in the matter, paying the deposit on the house we're currently in took all my money and I wouldn't have been able to pay rent.
To be fair, I know there is a lot of advice available if you look for it but I do think students are under educated about being in debt and suchlike. Blowing your overdraft might be fun as a student but being in debt is about as fun as having your fingernails prised off with tweezers. My aim is to be out of my overdraft by next summer and then to cancel it.

Anyway sorry I know everyone has money worries and I probably shouldn't rant about it on here!

I find this serial killing of prostitutes in Ipswich somewhat odd. I especially feel sad for their families, who in some cases didn't even know their daughters were selling themselves. It must be difficult enough to come to terms with the knowledge that your daughter is a heroin addict and prostitute, and then to know someone has killed her. The papers are full of theories about why this person is doing it, but for all they know it could be a women doing it.
I don't know. It's just sad and I don't like the media being over sensational about it.

I'm obviously in a bit of a tense mood so am going to go and listen to the radio and just not think for a bit. I also got pissed off earlier when reading some agony aunt page replying to a letter from someone who's partner had been cheating on them repeatedly with their best friend, and the advice was 'your relationship was happy before all this started so it's worth saving, sit down with her and talk about it'. Sorry, but frankly if Ryan suddenly started shagging one of my friends when we're in a happy relationship, I wouldn't find it easy to even be in the same room as him, let alone consider continuing our relationship. I think if someone is prepared to do that to you, they don't deserve your respect. If I was willing to make a conscious descision to cheat on Ryan, there's no two ways about it, I wouldn't deserve him. I know some people feel differently and might disagree, but I truly think if you love someone, you wouldn't excuse yourself for causing them that much hurt. I do believe completely in being forgiving but...just no.
I don't mean a mistaken drunken snog when you're out or had an argument, I don't mean a one off mistake which I think can be forgiveabe, but someone continually cheating on you...why would you want to be with them? It takes a while to truly get to know someone. I know things can be more complicated, I know people make allowances and nothing is black and white, I know things can be repaired even when they're very broken and people have different perceptions of what is a bad thing to do, but still. Well, this is only my opinion.

I'm just going to go and sit quietly now. :*)

another day on

2006-12-11T14:00:42Z

It looks like Ryan and I will definitely be driving down to Somerset on the evening of Friday 22nd next week. I'm so excited! I miss Castle Cary a lot. And then I'm so looking forward to being back in London and seeing everyone, Suze will be back soon, yay! Also I will see my brother as he's flying over from Boston on Christmas Eve. Happiness.

Before that, there's Rayen and Sef's Yule house feast gathering, which I'm really looking forward to, plus various other little things happening. I had a really good weekend, Bridget it was great to see you and thankyou for my present (a ticket to see Placebo at MEN arena last night), they were brilliant and it was a great atmosphere. It's made me really detirmined to make sure I get to as many gigs as possible next year. I know Ryan's completely unimpressed with himself for not going to any this year. We'll make up for it next year.
It's been a bit of a rough autumn, I think for a lot of people, not just us, there's been a lot of change and things to adjust to, but it will all smooth out. I'm looking forward to the start of a new year, psychologically it just gives the sense of a fresh start. I feel hopeful and happy about the future.

I'm not sure what is going on with my silly smile in this picture, but anyway.

Aww I love his grin.

times are told

2006-12-10T01:41:53Z

You kno what? I am soer of drunk. I am quite tipsy because lately i have been too lbroke to go out drinking. tonight we are drinking indoors. kenny has just gone bedwards. hopefully ellie will rejoin us. ryan, bridget and ian are down in te basement and shortly i will rejoin them.

I love my newly pierced nose. It looks like it was always piecred. I love it.

BUt. Suze, I miss you. Liz, i miss you. Maff, I Miss you. SAara I miss you. I miss you all so much there are no words for it. I love my life and i love my friends, north, south, onlune, offline. I just miss you four, who wer part of my formulative devekoplment, i love tou so much and i miss nights in maff's house drinking and singing along to shit
suze sara liz maff you are irreplaceable :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

sit down next to me

2006-12-08T10:44:11Z

I'm updating from work again. All this call answering is making my mouth dry, I'm going to get some water in a minute. I forgot my money so am going to be hungry all day. I feel a bit tired and irritable anyway, but never mind, that's not important.

I've just been reading back over my journal from 2004. It's interesting, how things change.

I think I spent too much time yesterday thinking!

shoot the runner

2006-12-07T12:48:43Z

Ryan and I went to see Pan's Labyrinth last night with Sef and Rayen. It was amazing, it's incredibly dark but beautiful and sad and just brilliant. You should all go and see it!

I still have all the images from it going round in my head today.

a body without a heart

2006-12-05T12:52:40Z

Is today Bad Temper Tuesday or something? We've had so many irate customers ringing up this morning, including one very rude woman who swore at us. I know it can get incredibly stressful when you're sorting out your finances, but things never are made easier by being rude to people who are trying to assist you. I'm sure she had a reason for being so wound up and was having a bad day, but still. It's just ignorant to ring up a company and then accuse the person who answers the phone of lying when they politely inform you they're having some trouble with connecting extensions at the moment.

Oh well. Then I took a call from an elderly lady who has mislaid her bankcard and has only 7p, so I gave her as much help as I could and had a nice conversation with her. :*) And my love of the human race was restored! I hope the Didsbury branch managed to help her.

The moon looked beautiful this morning and it's a pleasant day. Yay, going over to see Crick tonight, yay! :*) So will also see that little varmint Charlie. I am sure Ryan will manage to fix his own dinner, hehe.

fool's gold

2006-12-04T10:20:00Z

Oof, I feel dozy, and also a bit cold. Why are Co-op offices always bloody freezing?

I have many thoughts running through my head, thinking about what needs to be written down, who I need to email, things I need and want to do, neverending musings on relationships, as usual. I think I think too much, sometimes.

What do people think, are arguments an important part of relationships? Ryan commented last night on the fact that we never argue. Now I am, inevitably, overthinking about it. We do disagree on a regular basis on topics we have differing opinions on, and I think that's definitely a good thing, but that's different. I just am not argumentative in the irritable sense, generally.

I am actually feeling too tired to form a coherent thought. I may spend today staring dozily at my desk while listening to X-fm, in between taking calls.

the boy's not right in the head

2006-12-03T11:33:11Z

So, today is our anniversary. One year of Kay and Ryan! :*)

Seduction quiz stolen from Sef and Rayen, who we happily have spent time with over the past couple of days.

IT'S THE POWER OF LOVE1!!!!!1!!1!!